Day 38 March 22, 2012

It's been a very slow week; a CRAZY week. I didn't like this week at all. I FINALLY got the SIM card for my very crappy phone. It took me over a half an hour talking to customer service representatives last night trying to get it activated. Apparently no one knew what they were doing. Going without a phone for a week is the worst. I wouldn't wish it on anyone! This week I also had to learn a hard lesson...you would think this lesson was learned by now. I've come to the realization a very long time ago that life is not fair, but everything happens for a reason. I don't need to keep learning. I'm tired of learning the lessons. I just want to be happy. I don't think I will ever know why the events of last week had to happen, I was doing very good I think until then. Who knows. I will figure it out. This week we have also been working hard on getting the "embassy" ready for me to move my stuff in. Today or tomorrow we are bringing all of my stuff out! I'm so excited. I am so ready to get away from Seventh Street. I am ready for B to finally get his own room AND a playroom! I've never ever lived in a house with two bathrooms! OK well I have, but we tore it out pretty quickly after we moved in. I am so ready for a new start. I have big plans in store. One thing is for sure, I need to get back to the things that I love to do. Tonight, I get a sparring partner and I have been working out a lot. I want a better body. It's time I work on my happiness and loving myself, but I won't love myself if my body stays the way it is. I want to be a girl that people underestimate. I want to be able to do anything; things that would make guys proud of me, and girls too. You know what I mean, though? I want to shock people. When I think about the things I could learn to do, I get so excited. My future is looking bright. I can't wait to see how it turns out. This week has been a little bump in the road, but I have confidence that I will be just fine. Mommy&B