Day 3 February 16, 2012

HOME They say home is where the heart is. Well I'm not so sure about that. I think right now my heart would rather be three doors down. In fact, there are plenty of places my heart would rather be. A couple days ago, I would have taken Bentley and all my possessions and moved where ever anyone would take me just so we weren't alone. This is definitely something I need to work on. I'm NOT alone. I have Bentley and where we are now IS our home. I've been here in my house for almost three months, but I never really got the chance to make it a home. I didn't give myself the chance. When we moved in I was getting to know this amazing guy. He turned out to be everything I ever wanted in a man and more. It didn't take long at all for me to fall for him, but falling is what I do best I hear. So I always had him with me at my house or even more often we were at his...three doors down. Our relationship was by far the shortest I'd ever had, but at the same time it was the most important I've ever had. Now that we aren't together anymore I've been trying to turn my house into a home, but when you are so sad it's hard to do anything. I'm getting better though. I'm getting there. I've done projects, hung my photos and art, and rearranged furniture. One day at a time our house is becoming a home. That's what Bentley needs most, not some shell of a mother who can't get off the couch. I am going to create an amazing environment of awesomeness as my new "friend", Steph says. And someday, I will be so glad I started this incredible year. I will be able to tell Bentley about it, and he will be glad, too.

Mommy&B